It’s not going to be easy. Life never falls into place the way we want it to. It doesn’t give us clear answers, and it doesn’t always give us what we want. It doesn’t always follow our hearts or satisfy our wishes. The thing about life is that nothing is truly expected, and it’s scary sometimes to know that some things are out of our control. But at the same time, it’s all about making it the best that we can, and together, we can fight through it hand in hand.
let’s fight through it together.
the unspoken truth.
The truth is..no matter how angry we are at him or how upset we are, the thought of him never leaves our minds. No matter how much we choose to deny it, we actually miss him more than he would ever know. It’s exhausting being mad at him, and it’s tiring simply trying to ignore him. Yet, our stubbornness always takes over and refuses to admit the fact that we still care, and that deep inside, we have already forgiven him.
the sorest of hearts.
I don’t know how to get through to you anymore for you to understand. It’s not like it’s the first time, and I doubt it’s the last. It hurts me so much. Do you even know how it feels for me to hurt this way? How gravely disappointed I am to have your few words shoot numbing arrows to my heart and overflow my eyes with tears? How deeply pained I am to have to end the night like strangers on opposite sides of the world? Sadly, I’m afraid you don’t, and I don’t know if you would even try to reach down to my sorrow and understand.
Yup, it’s one of those days.
"love could be set in motion quickly, but true love needed time to grow into something strong and enduring. love was, above all, about commitment and dedication and a belief that spending years with a certain person would create something greater than the sum of what the two could accomplish separately."
— Nicholas Sparks
like a wandering soul, i feel lost without him.
Why does this always have to be so hard?
"fear should not be an obstacle when love glides right through it with ease."
— My honey ♥
the birth of a dream.
There are times when I just want to give up. Times when I am lost and completely clueless about the direction I am heading in..whether it’s right or wrong. Times when I feel like I am just wandering aimlessly simply trying to fit in to a place or find something that belongs to me and makes me who I am. Unlike many others, I am not courageous; I am not a risk-taker. And sometimes because of that, it makes me wonder whether I will ever make it to that destination I struggle desperately to reach. Maybe it’s only a matter of “want,” but it still makes me wonder whether a dream will always remain a dream. Will it ever come true? or am I just fooling and lying to myself by judging that I can handle this world of a challenge on my own?
But then I realized something; I realized I never gave myself a chance. I never gave faith a chance. Time after time, I doubt myself. I always overlook the optimism and the hope I really need to go far in life. And if I never gave faith that chance, how do I even have the rights to give up? How do I even dare to stop halfway before I even tried to reach the end?
At one point in our lives, all of us gave up on something before we really accomplished anything. And why? Because halfway through it, we begin to doubt our abilities. We doubt that we are capable of bringing to life a dream of our own. But how would we ever know that we can’t if we keep giving up time after time? How would we ever know if we don’t push through all of this with the best that we have and strive to the end?
It’s not because we can’t. It’s because we don’t think we can. It’s not because we saw the end that we give up. It’s because we can’t see the end that we do. We become afraid. We become afraid of the consequences that may appear to fail us and our expectations. We fear seeing a dream of ours get torn down and lose its beauty and brilliance. But the truth is, we are making excuses so the blame for letting go wouldn’t be on us. If one day, we can all learn to live fearlessly and faithfully, maybe..just maybe, we will win more than we lose, and we will gain more than we initially hoped for. And maybe, through patient nurturing, a dream will grow into reality.
He might not be the one who gets me. Or maybe he just isn’t that puzzle piece that just clicks with me. Maybe he’s not that “soul-mate.”
And truth is, there are going to be “better” people out there. Prettier girls than me and boys that understand me better than maybe he can, but let me just say this: even if there was someone “better” or even if that soul mate might come along, I doubt any of those people could teach me to love like the way he has taught me.
I love him. His flaws. Our differences. Our sometimes lack of understanding.
And though sometimes I struggle, I am learning and willing to love an imperfect man perfectly.
And that’s something a soul mate could never teach me.
Because with him, I fight harder to love and not out of obligation, but out of love. And the more I fight, the more I fall perfectly in love with this imperfect picture of us. ♥
I’m hopelessly in love with him.
In a way that even through the struggles, the comfortable stage, the problems, and even when the spark dies, somehow, in some way, I always end up falling back in love with him as if it was day one all over again.
It could be through an online conversation, a text, or maybe even the way he looks at me.
All it takes is one thing from him, and I just fall hopelessly back in love with him as if it was first time. ♥
(Source: fraseschorao)
“You know, one day you look at the person and you see something more than you did the night before. Like a switch has been flicked somewhere. And the person who was just a friend is suddenly the only person you can ever imagine yourself with.” ♥
That’s how it is with me and you.
It’s like I suddenly woke up and saw so much in you that I’ve never seen before. The way that I can somehow see myself in a part of you and you in a part of me. I don’t know exactly if these feelings are right, but there is one thing I know, and that is I never regretted any of them.
